I think i still love my ex part 2

The last time i wrote part 1, i was confused and did not know how to handle the challenge so unexpectedly thrown at my feet. But the days that followed were marked by intense reflection and the pursuit of clarity where confusion was rampant. It was not easy but I am not one who is easily dissuaded by hurdles or hardships. Yes when a path gets tough it is important to turn inwards and question one self on what is truly important. In this regard I came to learn that in this life, actions speaks louder than words. So when people use certain words to create a certain perspective and employ different actions that are contrary to those words, then the only conclusion that one can make is pure insincerity. Therefore when such a contradiction exist, it is important that we chose to consider what the actions imply rather than what the words convey. Secondly, never make anyone a priority when they just take you as just an option. This is because those people who truly love you will ensure that they make you feel loved, wanted and mostly valued. If you find that the only thing keeping that relationship moving is you, it is time to sit back and ask your self "is this real." The other so called better half never calls, always too busy for you and still has the gut to lie to you that your important to them. Pleaseee, open your eyes people thats pure crap. Thirdly never believe that you love anyone too much to let them go, I,m here to tell you that it is not true. No one is more important to your life that you'd rather be unhappy with them rather than not leave and give yourself the chance to seek real happiness. Sometimes when you allow yourself to move on, you may find that what you thought was beautiful was just a mirage formed out of enslaving of one's will due to infatuation and delusion. As time goes by we will continue with discussion but for now I have decided to follow a path of singleness in order to pursue autonomous reflection in order to make better choices.

-The new constituion

After so many decades of being governed with a colonial document, we have spoken. But that is an understatement since the whole of Kenya has roared their acceptance of the proposed new constitution. What does it mean for me? Nothing in the short run but i feel that in the grand scheme of things, this new document offers me countless opportunities not only to achieve my dreams but also chart a clear path towards the realization of my ambitions. There are things that I will mis about the referendum campaigns. first I will miss seeing two great rivals abandoning their rivalry and pitching camp together in support of this document. Their acts have brought unity to Kenya and helped overcome some suspicions between two of the most prominent tribes in Kenya. I will mis Mutahi Ngunyi's outrageous commentaries in his bid to stop the ratification of the constitution. The fellow was so radical that the publisher gave him the axe before the poor guy could be hauled to court for incitement. Word to nation management, we need him back or im leading a boycott of the Sunday nation. Kenyans again showed the world how mature they are and refused to engage in acts of violence and thuggery against their fellow country men. I hope that politicians will read the mood and appreciate that Kenyans are not willing to be taken for a ride and that it is time they walked the talk before we usher them out.

Taking a trip down memory lane..,.

There are unique memories that draw an individual into nostalgia and yearning for a time long past. Sometimes when life knocks you down and everything seems to loose meaning we find ourselves remembering the past, reliving those moments that made us feel alive. For those moments exist when small people feel big and those who are ordinary believe themselves to be super. Today is such a day for me and I cant stop myself from walking down that lane, stealing some measure of happiness from moments of old when my heart had swelled with happiness and all my dreams had seemed so easy to fulfill. I remember Lilian my first love and the beautiful lesson she taught me. To her credit she made me a believer in what i had believed to be just a myth, love. She made me learn that life is too short and that we must learn to live for the moment and that in our mortality, there can be no room for fear or worry. Died so young my love your memory always a source of strength in times of sorrow, fear or worry. RIP dear, may fate allow us to meet in a better place. Dam now im too sad to continue such a paradox life, for happiness to be sadness is inescapable.